I have been single for almost 20 years

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There's nothing much special about being single for 20 years. Because there are still so many girls out there have the same situation like me. Even exceeding 20 years. I'm not sure how long would I stand being single. If you're saying I'm too ugly to get in a relationship, I think there's more people less attractive compared to me (serious talk) gets different types of boyfriends even for every single period. You can't judge much about look to be in a relationship.

Somehow, sometimes I've ever thought about having in a relationship. Of course in this age, I'm developing my maturity, I'm thinking about a serious relationship for marriage. Teachers during high school told us, us, me, you, us, every students, that during high school, being in a relationship doesn't makes sense. It won't be serious and won't go any further. Yes that's true. IMO, there are some people who managed to stay with their boy/girlfriend from high school until marriage, but there are too rare. And most of those couple don't go any further, I mean they didn't achieve their career. Maybe they never thought about career, job, future and dreams during high school. Honestly I've never heard about couple who is in a relationship from high school, then continuing to college, bachelor, and maybe until postgraduate. Let's just see until bachelor, are they going to their choice of studies, which is considered bright studies, like engineering or medical? Is there any of them? No, right? I'm pretty sure, once they're in bachelor, they'll meet various types of guys and girls that fits their taste.

Okay back to the main topic. What I am trying to say here is that yes there's no point to be in a relationship during high school if you have your own aim. Like mine, during high school, I wanted to be an engineer and develop the country and my own hometown while discovering different kinds of skills to discover what my real talent is. Lol

So okay. Now alhamdulillah I'm in my first year of my choice of study. Studying engineering in this university. I  have my own target, my own arrows too. However, thinking about what my teachers told us when I was in high school, seeing people here, people around me, girls around me having a relationship, considering my age and so on. I'm a girl. I'm a straight girl. I do have feelings.

But I don't exactly know how to be in a relationship. I don't want. I'm thinking about either how the hell should I let my 20 years of singleness caught by the guys that aren't perfect or why the hell should I be with those guys that is perfectly better than me that can get better girls that one day they might leave me and I'm gonna have ex. Those are two opposite shitty thoughts I am always having. I have few people who I have considered to fall for. Haha. But I think about those things again. I cancel thinking and living my current life. And continuing thought about why am I single.

Another thing that is always on my mind is,

why should I be in a relationship with this guy?

He has ex. He might had changed because of his ex without even knowing. Before this, he was a different person. He gave his true love to his first love because he believes that she was the one. He might sacrificed a lot. He might be the most romantic guy to that girl. But after their break up, his heart was really broken that made him changed. Now he becomes more careful and cautious. He don't sacrifice much for the new one. Because he afraid things will be the same. His love won't be the same again.
I just saw this in Twitter,

Your first love will always have a special place in your heart.

Oh that's painful. While I don't have any ex.

Or he might just wanted to be with me because he wanted to cure his pain.

Or he just need somebody. I'm afraid I'm not that somebody.

Eseh. HAHAHA.


But I don't want the guy that never had experience in relationship. Because he might be one creepy guy that don't know how to express love.


Alright. Just sharing my overthinking mind. These are my actual problems to be in a relationship.

I believe I will end up to be in a relationship with someone. Because God made us with pair. That's essential of life.

Happy Birthday Adam

Assalamu'alaikum wbt and hi

Here in Labuan FT Malaysia GMT +8, when I'm writing this, it's 2 minutes before 12 am (11:58pm) of July 5th 2014.

I know EST is still Friday 4th July 11:58 am

I feel like going to post some thoughts of me about Owl City - is that make sense

Anyway

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM YOUNG! <3

Haha potato jk

You're 28 now. Wow we're just have 10 years of gap. That doesn't matter jk

So Adam Young, which is also Owl City

talking about him at this midnight while listening to his music I am really really feeling deep.

With his adorable voice ughh

Ohh yess, #BeyondTheHillsOfOwlCity is now trending in Twitter cuz one of our Hoot Owl is handling a virtual birthday party on Twitter and going to release her music for Adam. :D
Few weeks ago, I've thought and tweeted about "When #HootOwl girl meets #HootOwl boy a happy love story begins" and some Hoot Owls agreed with the statement. That really make sense somehow. Because Hoot Owls have their own way of life ( lol ) I mean I can see they're in good manners due to Adam the considered leader of Hoot Owls that give good vibes. Yess his musics are most of them, especially his latest EP Ultraviolet, lyrically sad and deep while it's melody is happy and cheerful ( I guess ).

It's more to like he's trying to understand no he's understanding you like you can bring any of his songs through your good or bad day whenever you want. You'll feel like writing the whole songs all about you I guess I'd never feel like this for the other artists I've ever being fan of.

Another great thing about us Hoot Owl is Adam consider us as his friend lol that might sounds weird in reality but nah even it's just virtual this humble guy name Adam really consider us as friends and I'm like yuckkk this old guy he's not my friend jk.

Adam is... Humble. Yes really humble I've never found another great artist in his level that would interact, socialize and share things with fans. He shared lots of his history (or memory or whatever) in his instagram and all the stories are sound really humbly spoken. Like some of his school background, subjects and family.

Sometimes I feel like I have some common personalities no I mean I can relate him this sounds crazy though but nevermind reading his stories of past really remind me of myself in the past.
But I can see his past is harder than me.

Some snippets about his interesting life stories that might affects you be like, he graduated high school and thinking about what his life is going to be then he wrote musics and call himself as Owl City and all his friends is history.
He is always feeling grateful for what he has and will always do the best now because for him, anytime unknowingly some things might become what he had.
The most thing I relate him is in that particular time, everyone hates him
and in school everyone is annoyed with him and he found everyone is annoying.
He didn't like to socialize in public ( I'm not sure now )
When people try to talk to him like trying to socialize with him, he's just like *I don't want to talk*.

Some of his best lines of songs,
My heart's burning bad and it's turning black but I'm learning how to be stronger.
It's just a beginning this isn't the end.
This fight of my life is so hard but I'm gonna survive, these are beautiful times.
Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly.
I'll forget the world that I knew, but I swear I won't forget you.
If my heart was a compass you'd be north.
I can still feel your heart beat fast when you dance with me.
I walk slowly when I feel alone ( do you feel alive? ) yeah but frankly I still feel alone.
You can't whisper above the thunder but you can fly anywhere.
Picture paints a thousand words.
Don't look back.
Is it over yet, will I ever smile again?
A jumble of footprints and hasty steps I can't retrace.
A mountain of things I still regret.
I'll be out of my mind and you'll be out of ideas pretty soon.
There's an underwater Ferris Wheel.
I'm blushing all the way home.
The Sun hung from a string looking down on the world as it warms over everything.
Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall.

Many more! Like the whole lyrics of all of his songs!

My kind of boy - Reshared.

Caption.

If your a guy - Post this as my kind of girl.
If your a girl - Post this as my kind of boy.

1.Do you need him/her to be good looking? - Not really.

2. Smart? - Sure.

3. Preferred age? - Same age with me or he's older than me.

4. Preferred height? - Taller than me.

5. How about sense of humor? - Sure.

6. How about piercings? - Huh?

7. Accepts you for who you are? - Sure laaaaaaaaa.

8. Pink hair? - No. Original hair color.

9. Mushy or no? - Never.

10. Thin or fat? - Thin or average.

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)? - White or brown.

12. Long hair or short hair? - Average.

13. Plastic or metal? - Metal platinum.

14. Smells good? - Sure.

15. Smoker? - Never.

16. Drinker? - Never.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type? - Yes.

18. Muscular? - Depends.

19. Plays piano? - Depends. Can him?

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar? - Acoustic guitar.

21. Plays violin? - Can him?

22. Sings very good? - Sure.

23. Vain? - Depends.

24. With glasses? - Sure. Fully-black-framed glasses.

25. With braces? - No.

26. Shy type? - Sure. :3

27. Rebel or good boy/girl? - Good.

28. Active or passive? - Passive.

29. Tight or bomb? - Depends.

30. Singer or dancer? - Singer.

31. Stunner? - No.

32. Hiphop? - Depends.

33. Earrings? - No.

34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop? - No.

35. Dimples? - Does he has?

36. Bookworm? - Fiction books - 'knowledgeful' books.

37. Mr/Ms. love letter? - No.

38. Playful? - With me only.

39. Flirt? - No.

40. Poem writer? - No.

41. Serious? - Depends.

42. Campus crush? - Huh?

43. Painter? - Depends.

44. Religious? - Sure.

45. Someone who likes to tease people? - People is only family.

46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak? - Computer games.

47. Speaks 20 languages? - Can him?

48. Loyal or faithful? - Both for sure.

49. Good kisser? - Haha yes.

50. Loves children? - Only ours.

Reshared.

*May changed in the future.


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Update 25th October 2015:
It's 2015 and I found this. Not everything above is accurate anymore

Week 14 : The busy week.

Week 14 has been passed for weeks ago.

From the title, then you know why am I posting it this late.

Yeah. I've been many tasks to finish.

Now, final exam is just around the corner.

Just few weeks left before I leave this college.

Then good bye!

Anyway that's not all I'm talking about.

It's just week 14.

Where it starts with...

Submit your program here.
Pseudocode and flow chart.

The C++ CHALLENGE.

Due date on week 14, Monday.

We've been worked for it from Friday to Monday.

This is the results.

Photos by @IkaCklat

Well it doesn't seems too long. But I bet our flow chart works well. Maybe there's some silly mistakes

but... Let bygones be bygones.

What I'm really sure is just that the pseudocode is completely wrong.

I guess that's the main reason why does we've been disqualified.

Amy submits our submission.

This is the most epic submission we have. Where we just wrote the pseudocode on the day of deadline! Hope you can think when did we submit. Maybe few minutes after the deadline? Haha.

By the way. Not just that.

On Monday, as usual, my class schedule is all subjects tutorial! Except Computer Science. So... I have to do them.

On Wednesday if I wasn't wrong, we got the Interview Program but... Maybe that was 1 week ago. Nvm forget about it. Skip this day.

On Thursday, I was going to have the Chemistry Quiz at night. So I have to study them.

On Friday yeah that night. We have to set up our booth for our Physics CID ( C... Innovation... D... - I hope at least the I is correct ). During Physics Week... With theme... The future engineer! Hahaha. I guess. :O

So that night, we have set up until 12 am. Then back to my dorm, I prepared some physics concepts about our project. Until 2 am just sleep. Then woke up at 6 am.

So, on Saturday, we present it! From 8 am until 4/5 pm. It's a competition. Our project was the Mini Projector and represented as Mini Alpha Projector. Yeahh.

Anyway we prepared it and on that day of competition, at 10 am, we just finished design our booth. That was wasting our presentation time. 2 hours of waste. :/

But we're still happy that we got a focused and somewhat sharp magnified image with our projector since that 10 am by some constructive comments that we got and keep improving it.

Ahh I was really enjoyed especially when one of the boy in that purple robotic group came. He's sooo cute that he suddenly gave me our voting card? What... I hope I have took it from him but unfortunately my friend kacau ishh. Talking to you, watching you by closer distance. Less than 1m. ;) Less than 15 cm. Hahaha lawl.

I'm not saying what, it's just at least I'm not annoying for him that's alright.

Now I bet he recognizes me. Because I can feel that. Especially after this Physics Week. Hahahah!!! Because I had previous 'chasing' past during our Citrabudaya carnival. Accidentally chased him. -___-

If my friends read this. I'm gonna die.

Finally... We got 2nd for our project! Congratulations to Mini Alpha Projector Booth! Also for Purple group. Love you. <3 I mean love you my group members.

Our group members consist of :

• Josephine.
• Marychell.
• Aisyah.
• Miemy. 

More info about the Physics Week : http://www.kml.matrik.edu.my/entry/index.php?start=1

What happen?

I have no idea what am I suppose to talk. It's just, too many!

Assalamu'alaikum.

Too many problems, works, ideas to think to do to whatsoever.
The main problem of me is easily psyched. Over thinking. That's all.
Also, this is how my voice really is.
Anyway, I just memorize that I supposed to write about the Merdeka Raya celebration in my college. :3

It was so sweet but I guess it's better for me to keep my mouth shut of talking something like that in public like this... Since... I don't think I have feeling towards my crush anymore.
As I can feel and see, that I was no longer became that AGGRESSIVE as before like what my friend told me.
Yesss during the Merdeka Raya, I wore baju kurung white + black color with grey-like tudung.
Then both of 'them' wore the same. I mean, one wore black and one more wore grey. ;)
Maybe you can't understand what I was crapping but thanks for reading. :)
One more thing, I've being hit with problems of ____ and in love with study that makes me less normal than usual people who would fall in love with the person they love but my heart is for my study now because I think study is better than love because it makes you look not as usual girls like me hahahahahaha what am I talkinggg.

XO

During Merdeka Raya. It was just nice and exciting. :D

Account right in front of me. I mean 'right' and 'in front' of me.
:P

This is another...

You know who is Owl City's daughter?

I've checked back my previous folders and I got these pictures.

I'm Owl City's daughter which is also G-Dragon's girlfriend.

Alright, that's funny. This is what I've done maybe few weeks ago. Anyway, I just found out that G-Dragon said:

"I want to get married as soon as possible. If I meet someone, I want to marry her tomorrow."

Like that?! That girl will be so lucky.

This is not funny. This is shocking. When I open my profile, it turns like this.

Best day of 2013!

It's always a good time!
I'm really really happy and feel great today. Many unexpected things happened.
Lots of love to Adam Young (also known as Owl City) because he'd be the starting. XDDD

Last night, I planned to sleep early, but unfortunately my insomniac (I mean internet connection) makes me sleep as always, 1 - 2 a.m. But then I HARDLY woke up about 7 a.m. I mean, when I wakeup, I feel like I was just wakeup from comma. I saw '1st breath after comma' in Youtube few weeks ago then I saw someone comments something like:

Great short film! This made me memorize the moment when I just wakeup from comma. When I wakeup, I feel so panic that I can't even move my hands.

So this morning, I wokeup, suddenly sit and see the clock. It's 7 ++ a.m.! I check the clock again through my phone, I try to unlock my phone. I press, I press, but I can't! - That's why I memorized about the Youtube video. I was something like - am I just wakeup from comma?! Finally I forced myself to unlock the phone. It's 7:30 a.m.! Oh no! Faster faster faster! Take towel, run to the bathroom, think many things while bath (additional facts about me), exit from bathroom, watch the clock. Oh no it's almost 8 a.m.! Just about 3 minutes more!!! :/ Why do I wait until 8 a.m.?

Q&A Session with Owl City every Thursday 7PM EST.
Which is equal to 'Every Friday 8AM Malaysian Time'.

Good morning! I just don't even take my breakfast, direct on the laptop, on Twitter. Really really right on time, Owl City tweets: "GUYS QUESTION ME NOW"

GUYS, QUESTION ME NOW? #OCTMS
— Owl City (@owlcity) February 15, 2013

So I tweet him! Then I get a reply. Really really grateful, not all of tweets he get was replied.

Owl City (Adam Young) replies me! :D

Then... I forgot what else.

What else I memorized was the meteoroid fall. :/
However, today seems really meaningful. :D